Another chapter's ending,

Monday, February 04, 2008

okay.i cant deny that sunday was like the most awesome everr..

but at night

manda got me wondering, asking, thinking, questioning

she was warning about her you see.

well

manda reads people fantas cus she's in nygh

not that way as in people who go there are smart, yeah but, i mean, like the environment they're in

how do i say this..

like take the bitchiest thing ever in crescent, in ny is like the norm, apparently

especially since they're like, yeah, smart

haha so the public has completely, crappy opinions on ny, haha

really.completely.stupid.if you think abt it, its almost funny..

oh.so yeah she was yeah..

man i swear she can read like a book

i mean, she understood my post, i didnt even understand some of the stuff i was saying..

she said my post are exactly like how it is when i speak on the phone

0.O

i guess.

so she said if she didnt understand me, it means she wasnt listening to me

i was like thinking, hell, how didya know..(manda i can just imagine how youre thinking as you read this)

so anyway verdict is i gotta be wary, but like how?

she said end it, or get her to actually listen which is impossible (how would you know its impossible even i didnt know it was)

so end it.i cant!!!i mean, i tried on thurs (and many times before)

apparently, i wasnt trying hard enough..

i admit it wasnt my all

so well i just gotta make sure it doesnt ruin me yeah?[how would it?o.O]

but hell, the trust ive already placed, i realised..

(after talkin to jacq on sat, manda on sun)

..was so, so much

well although manda had sowed some doubts..

really.i trust everything.EVERYTHING you said.

if someone comes along from the future and tells me its gonna ruin me,

i still couldnt do anything about it.

thats right.im this hopeless.this pathetic.

even more so, that i know,

and still wont do anything.

The Seed.

How much could have been fake?

What am i to you?

but you make me so happy, isnt that enough?

enough to nullify all that?

[damn it is]

6:29 PM