Thursday, February 28, 2008
i swear im stupid
its 1.40 am this moment
supposed to be "staying up to do art"
so i get online to study how to draw light bulbs..
and bam im doing crap thats totally unrelated to art.
ahh well.i'll show you my art^^
thats for the coke thumbnail.man if you'd seen the ipod one.. yikes the ipod looks so gangsta.
im supposed to be doing the light bumb one now...
..and then think up the last thumbnail,
AND THEN paint my final, which is the coke.
PAINT.thats why i decided to skip bedtime,yknow,just like the previous assignment..
did i tell ya?i finished at 5am that day.what time do i usually wake?5.30.
anyways i slept till 6 but still managed to catch the bus..
omg lord please please please let us not have to hand in our art tmr/today/this thurday i pray pray pray
ARGHHHH I WANNA SKIP SCHOOL
FUCK ART FUCK PBL FUCK THURSDAYS
AAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHH
at least last thurs wasnt so bad thanks to lovely common tests
BUT BUT BUT this week..bah.ooh and the next.bah.
it'll be so amazing if i finish my art (i seem to be saying that every week)
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yimin kept going at it during home econs.sigh.
christy says she gets that all the time.
well i dont.the entire class (just about) was never supposed to know in the first place yeah? but wth..sigh.
but in the end, they really dont know anything.haha.
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I MISS THE LOVELY YIHUI AND FUNNY CHAI LUAN !!!
*
ooh.cait and i had this wonderful convo.lol
so i was saying art was tmr..
cait : O MINE TOO!!!
THATS SO FRIGGING COOL WE HAVE ART CONNECTION!
haha.and she said hers was first period
and i wasnt sure mine so i went to check
after a long while, i said it was last period
and she said : haha you were checking!!!
genius i tell ya.(grins)
oh wait, then we were talking about cigs.
cait: i bet teachers smoke
me: LOL
cait: i bet ur principle runs on wet grounds
cait: i bet ms loke wears her skirt high
me: and ms kok?:D
cait: i bet she's failed math
LOL
(dont mind,its a 6peace inside joke)
later on..
cait: OHOHOH i told alex that u call remi bishounen and now alex and jonahmae and others are calling remi bishounen and its so funny cos he dun understand
me: do they know how to pronounce bishounen?
cait: no
cait: we decided on
cait: BYE-SHOW-NERN
me: its BEE-SHOW-NEN
me: without r
cait: ok
cait: got that
cait: bee show nen
cait: IF ONLY U WERE HERE
cait: i swear we'd have so much fun
cait: clique and all
me: lol
me: crescent killed me
me: rmb?
me: haha
cait: i like fantasizing bout what would have happened if i was sent to australia with friends and all and we strut around school looking all asian cool
cait: THAT FRIGGIN RHYMES ZOEY. IM A GENIUS
cait: no zoey when ur with us u brought back to life
brought back to life.
brought back to life.
sigh.really, i wish
i wish.. i could be just as i were back then.
i was a .. [you guys fill in the blanks ive forgotten already]
well basically last year i lost myself when i stepped into G3
that effing class.
i love yihui and ppl.but the class, hell no.
C1's helped so much more after G3.ive found a piece.make that a few.
but am i ever gonna get back myself entirely?
haha.sounds too good to be true.
yknow i told myself,
if i dont leave crescent having a wonderful group of friends like in p6,
ive officially failed my whole four years of crescent.socially.
haha you guys know why i left G3?
it wasnt just cus of hating higher chinese.there was..a mutitude of reasons
anyway if i stayed in G3 for sec2 i knew it would be wasting my time
and id be so SICK of the class i could go mad.(poor jasmine who agreed)
was sick of them last year anyway (MINUS SOME PEOPLE)
and i wished i could go to C1 (despite its peoples constant advice on why i shouldnt)
made it here didnt i? preferred it here didnt i?
well i know im never gonna hate it as much as G3, and thats GREAT.
and i would never have had TSH if ive never came.
nor made friends with christy.
(and everyone else i had/would)
(grins)
..and so later me and cait were on mean girls cus of 'asian cool'^^
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AHHHHH OMG FUCK ITS THREEE
-FREAKS-
1:36 AM
Tuesday, February 26, 2008
i miss common test!! >< ..already.haha.
CUS YOU CAN LIKE SLACK LIKE CRAZYYY
yupps^^ i slacked haha.never really studied,for ,um, all of them?
anyways WE GOT BACK THE CHINESE PAPER.
the one i fell asleep [once again] in..
yeah.thought i was gonna get like 60+ but
its 73.
BETTER THAN THAT OTHER 72.5 OMG.
and im gonna flunk hist and most of all lit.fazylah is gonna be soo..
oh well lessons are fucking resuming..
..and shit thursday beckons yet again.gahh.
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free period during english^^
slaaackyy.i like slacky.
the class would be so noisy, then it sounds like its half empty..
its nice (grins).the noisy is the sort of soporific white noise kinda thing.(grins)
yeah well i was trying to sleep
then wondering whether i shouldnt
then wondering if i should just tear that stupid book away from christy
then deciding i was too lazy to wonder anyway
and then.
yknow the crappy people playing the crappy truth or dare s**t?
um.i wont say it.but they were annoying.
and disgusting whoever thought that shit up
but the geraldine thing was cute.haha.they got her to pull up her socks and go around to every person saying 'im a nerd.i like math.'
later i read that sucking blood part christy grossed out over.
PLEASE.i mean, lol, the kind of things i read..Hahaa
The Rose? Gothel? heh.
we spent the rest of the time talking yeah,
after she finally got away from that book
ANNE RICE.didnt sound so interesting to me..is she any good?
lol.when j came over it wasnt so hard to get her away (i started talking about bill)
wait OMG BILL
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!
HE'S GORGEOUS.
ahhhhhhhhh!!!
[uhhuh he looks like a girl.whatever.]
my dp? (grin) yeah my dp.if you see a girl, its a guy.ITS A GUY, and its Bill!!
manda asks if i like him for looking like a girl or guy.(grins)
BILLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL <3
Omg ive never put that for tokito or kubota!!
alright! kubo-chan!! <3
aaaaand toki-kun!!! <3
HAHAH god im stupid. -bonk-
ooh.did i mention?L IS CUUUUTE!!
thats for L lovers yeah! yeah you andro!Lol
AHHHHHHH going guy crazy is fuuuuuun.(grins)
and it doesnt matter whether they :
look like girls
dont exist
or is the god of death
HAHAHA.THEY ROCK ALL THE SAME.
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geraldine is looony.does she expect me to answer? O.o
i mean, like those were like her first few sentences to me and she asks..
..ah hell.got me thinking anyhow.
'how much?'
ooh whatever. gahhhh. fhoosh fsoosh. grrrrrr.
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IT IS MY DREAM TO STUDY SUB-ATOMIC PARTICLES.
AND, UM, THE UNIVERSE.
im referring to quantum mechanics^^
huh.i cant believe you some of you guys -hint hint- have no idea what it is.
[sticks tongue out]
AH.feels like my LIFE'S DIRECTION.(grins)
question is my capablilty..
..ooh but ive the passion!!!
please please please i hope i can manage that subject.
i want a PHD in it.
7:14 PM
Wednesday, February 20, 2008
so i went tokio hotel crazy for a bit.then it was aqua timez (okay i still like them!)
now its
BOWLING FOR SOUP
the song..
The Bitch Song.
-its up.but read the lyrics.hehe.
and..
I'm Gay.
hemhem.gay as in happy.
but the song is soooo cute!!!
(This fucking song is all personality)(Dude, that's the shit!)Well we've all heard abouthow the guys in the bandWeren't the popular kids in schoolAnd now you hate your parents'cause of the way you turned outBut in the end the blame's on youAnd we all sympathize with your torn-apart heartAnd your really artistic worldly viewsIt sells records when you're sad these daysIt's super cool to be mad these daysI think rock and roll is really funnywhen it's seriousDon't hate us 'cause we're happyDon't hate us 'cause we're beautifulDon't hate us if we make you smileOr if we go the extra mileTo make someone feel betteron a really shitty dayAnd if you're hearing what I'm saying thenI want to hear you say, "I'm gay!" (I'm gay!)Say, "I'm gay!" (I'm gay!)Let's start a movement, let's start it right nowAnd if you don't know where to startI can show you I'm your new team captainPut your left hand over your heartand repeat after meIt's perfectly fine to be a happy individualIt's perfectly fine to be a happy individualChris, Gary? You guys wanna join in?(Yeah, buddy. Sure. Sorry Dude)It's perfectly fine to be a happy individualIt's perfectly fine to be a happy individualVery Nice. Very Nice.Don't hate us 'cause we're happyDon't hate us 'cause we're miserableDon't hate us if we make you smileOr if we go the extra mileTo make someone feel better on a really shitty dayAnd if you're hearing what I'm saying thenI want to hear you say, "I'm gay!" (I'm gay!)Say, "I'm gay!" (I'm gay!)That's right, ladies and gentleman!Pick up the phone'cause Bowling For Soup is on the line!And you don't have to be sad anymore!You don't have to be mad anymore!We can all join hands and do ring aroundthe freaking rosie!In fact, can we can get some "La la"s up in here?It sells records when you're sad these daysIt's super cool to be mad these daysI think rock and roll is really funnyWhen it's seriousYo, where my "La la"s at!La la-la la, la-la la-laLa la la laLa la-la la, la-la la-laLa la la laLa la-la la, la-la la-laLa la la laLa la-la la, la-la la-laLa la la laLa la-la la, la-la la-la
hehheh.
gooo listen!!
oh and today tsh gave out the chinese test paper
suddendly my name was called
i saw 72.5 ..
and i freaked "OMG OMG OMG AAAAAAAAAHHHHHHH!!!"
yupps.remember i failed SO much last year?
then suddenly its ABOVE SIXTY
lol.like mine lit.last year were barely passes..
but somehow i passed by 14/25 even though i only did 1a and not 1b.doesnt make sense yeah?
then suddenly fazylah had written on my paper
" zoey, where is your 1b? this is such a waste! "
" you've written a brilliant A-grade essay, but by answering only half of the question you'll almost definitely fail in the exams. "
" it is such a waste - this was the best 1a ive read in all my marking so far. =( "
i was like.um..yeah.
lol.and i was so sure i was gonna do it worse than fail cus half marks gone and i couldnt have aced 1a anyway..
but yeah there you go thats what happened.^^
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lets not forget harriet's amazing perrrfect 10 in history
really.ten outta ten.
*
oh.and home econs was actually nice
cus me and christy were basically insulting..
the person who's unsurprisingly not a mrs
i drew a crude drawing of her..
yknow crude drawings suck..
but the resemblance was uncanny..heh.
and then we had to borrow HC textbooks so we went out and took our time^^
went to g3 and got two books..
then i dont know why but jimin took them from us and asked us to find another two for her and yimin or somethin
..wth.. -_- hey we got those ourselves..
anyway we all went to c2 and got one more
but in the end i spent the rest of the lesson talking to xinyi about msg lol^^
and lockers.very fun it was after school.haha.
I NOW LOVE MY LOCKER AGAIN
sooo yeah.then christy went on the train with andro and i after school.
i repeat.christy is very nice.
i repeat.i would like her to sit the train with us again.
^^
10:17 PM
Monday, February 11, 2008
took this on wed when jacq and linsha were over ^^ THATS YUKI THE SHEEPIE ^^
and harriet's name tag LOL
got it from her cus
SHE STOLE HAN RU'S BADGE
AND CUS IT TOOK ME SO LONG TO GET BACK
(cus it was in the damn shirt pocket)
I THOUGHT I BETTER TAKE THE NAME TAG TOO
AS PAYBACK
muahahahahah.
yeah.wed was so fun
(grin)
after school AND before..
i think i prefer before..
(bigger grin)
would have stayed in that hall forever
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I SWEAR HARRIET YOU BETTER DELETE THAT POST
*
GUESS WHAT???
I WENT TO SUET'S HOUSE TODAY
whhheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
well i was planning to go to macs with andro, then go to andro's house..
THEN AT THE TRAFFIC LIGHT CAME SUET AND HARR AND THEN HARRIET WAS TALKING TO PAM OR HAN RU SAYING..
...THAT SHE WAS GOING TO SUET'S HOUSE.
though i was hungry..remember the hungry zoey?
and andro.i havent sat the train with her in WEEKS.and i really really wanted to..
yeah.so torn between the burger + andro, with suet's house..
..i ended up choosing suet.
well i HAD to.i mean, when was the last time anyone went?
when was the last time i..NEVER.
the burger..andro..will come.but suet's house?when could i get the chance again?
and so today was the VERY FIRST TIME i finally met suet's father, sister, and
HOUSE.
its was nothing special actually..BUT THE SIGNIFICANCE OF IT..
(grin) ooh yeah.ij ppl havent huh? (rubbing it in)
heh heh.
(snigger)
YAY ME WOOHOO HAHA!!
*
you dont look all that bad with contacts really
(bright grin)
*
caitlin~!! my letter~??
heh.
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mr tham allowed!!!
next term!!im sitting next to andro next term!!
wooooooooohooooooooooooooooo!!!
CANT WAIT
^^
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both cklare s are NICE
K KLARE AND C CLARE
VERY VERY REALLY
^^
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MY DAD GAVE ME THIRTY FOR A MONTH.
A DOLLAR A DAY, BUT WHATEVER.
THIRTY!!!!
^^
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happy things so far huh?
well.
we'll move to bayshore i dont know when and dont wanna think when
...its in east coast.
friggin other side of spore.
-CRAP-
oh and FUCK THURSDAY WHEN IT COMES
hate hate hate hate..
5:00 PM
Tuesday, February 05, 2008
(It starts with) One thing / I don’t know why It doesn’t even matter how hard you try Keep that in mind / I designed this rhyme To explain in due time All I know time is a valuable thing Watch it fly by as the pendulum swings Watch it count down to the end of the day The clock ticks life away It’s so unreal Didn’t look out below Watch the time go right out the window Trying to hold on / but didn’t even know Wasted it all just to Watch you go I kept everything inside and even though I tried / it all fell apart What it meant to me / will eventually / be a memory / of a time when I tried so hard And got so far But in the end It doesn't even matter I had to fall To lose it all But in the end It doesn't even matter One thing / I don’t know why It doesn’t even matter how hard you try Keep that in mind / I designed this rhyme To remind myself how I tried so hard In spite of the way you were mocking me Acting like I was part of your property Remembering all the times you fought with me I’m surprised it got so (far) Things aren’t the way they were before You wouldn’t even recognize me anymore Not that you knew me back then But it all comes back to me In the end You kept everything inside and even though I tried / it all fell apart What it meant to me / will eventually / be a memory / of a time when I tried so hard And got so far But in the end It doesn’t even matter I had to fall To lose it all But in the end It doesn’t even matter I've put my trust in you Pushed as far as I can go For all this There’s only one thing you should know I've put my trust in you Pushed as far as I can go For all this There’s only one thing you should know I tried so hard And got so far But in the end It doesn’t even matter I had to fall To lose it all But in the end It doesn’t even matter
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its a short story.
btw the narrator's a girl.
wont take long to read really.
=]
(probably not your type lol)
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[ from the same site ]
The Rose
Bob Vega
Bob Vega
taking deeply of breath
i found the sweetest aroma
of the rose upon me.
i looked down unto thorn’d rosebush,
reached to take of singular bud
and was pricked.
blood drawn quickly dripped unto the soil
and i finished my theft
of white rose with alternate hand.
raising the bud to mine face
i took in all she had to offer of scent.
quizzing at her beauty,
i dripped of mine blood
upon her whitest petals.
crimson stain
spread deep into the bud
and i smiled.
i squeezed of more juice
‘till petals were red of me,
and bud was heavy.
raising it again to mine face,
i took of her aroma
and caressed mine cheek
with soaking, inky petals.
taking deeply
breath of sweet fruitless offering,
i licked stained petals.
taking the bud into mine mouth,
i peeled away layer by layer,
exposing moist inner.
resting on mine tongue
i suck of her crimson nectar
hidden deep inside,
and lap the juice as it emits slowly,
bitter dressing unto mine palate.
and i take of her petals,
silky texture to mine taste,
and leave her stem.
perhaps to take another by blood.
but i have taken of her,
by god,
i have taken her...
9:58 PM
Monday, February 04, 2008
okay.i cant deny that sunday was like the most awesome everr..
but at night
manda got me wondering, asking, thinking, questioning
she was warning about her you see.
well
manda reads people fantas cus she's in nygh
not that way as in people who go there are smart, yeah but, i mean, like the environment they're in
how do i say this..
like take the bitchiest thing ever in crescent, in ny is like the norm, apparently
especially since they're like, yeah, smart
haha so the public has completely, crappy opinions on ny, haha
really.completely.stupid.if you think abt it, its almost funny..
oh.so yeah she was yeah..
man i swear she can read like a book
i mean, she understood my post, i didnt even understand some of the stuff i was saying..
she said my post are exactly like how it is when i speak on the phone
0.O
i guess.
so she said if she didnt understand me, it means she wasnt listening to me
i was like thinking, hell, how didya know..(manda i can just imagine how youre thinking as you read this)
so anyway verdict is i gotta be wary, but like how?
she said end it, or get her to actually listen which is impossible (how would you know its impossible even i didnt know it was)
so end it.i cant!!!i mean, i tried on thurs (and many times before)
apparently, i wasnt trying hard enough..
i admit it wasnt my all
so well i just gotta make sure it doesnt ruin me yeah?[how would it?o.O]
but hell, the trust ive already placed, i realised..
(after talkin to jacq on sat, manda on sun)
..was so, so much
well although manda had sowed some doubts..
really.i trust everything.EVERYTHING you said.
if someone comes along from the future and tells me its gonna ruin me,
i still couldnt do anything about it.
thats right.im this hopeless.this pathetic.
even more so, that i know,
and still wont do anything.
.
The Seed.
How much could have been fake?
What am i to you?
.
but you make me so happy, isnt that enough?
enough to nullify all that?
[damn it is]
6:29 PM