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Thursday, January 31, 2008
Like i said. Like i knew. see.. . i fucked up art emo ed at lunch crapped pbl sucky lunch, suckier art shit pbl FUCK THURSDAYS YES YES YES I HATE THEM TO THE CORE but i liked going home (i went with suet) =] * i like christy and cant stand jaclyn please please andro sit next to me!! yvonne doesnt seem to like me much but there's nice klare, nicer sarah and jessie * its hard the way she's like that i just wish.. ... . im completely justified to im sure you'll agree i just cant stand neither you it shldve ended (begin it shouldnt) but what pulled it together its now been cut unless they join them severed ends more than, apart when n and s shouldnt be yet why is a very good question (the answer makes cri) im still amazed im a disgrace dammit * the way they're at it is like its taboo.. f st * hey!who wants a gathering at my place during cny who can make it? its suggested by my parents so i definitely can COME?? please and thank you ^^
6:21 PM
Wednesday, January 30, 2008
(dont mind this post im just fucking.. annoyed) tired tired tired . sure i wanted to know why not i can handle the truth its not too much but its gonna get me closing up again now i even miss that . sowed a seed of knowing doubt and new carefulness for better or for worse its getting me back to giving up again which i know i would just fail at again i watch my every action now . is this somewhat stupid why should i care at all but i do, f me what can i really affect after all . i'll be watching [f you again] analzing what for im just the sucker alright . hey i'll just die already. . fool me, shit everyone else if i would lose it dont give it to me in the first place if im gonna lose it in every single time in the end id like to know id steel it right away isnt it solid rock already . (take no notice of this post, please)
12:38 AM
Saturday, January 19, 2008
BILL!!!OMG Bill Kaulitz he has a Perfect face. absolutely perfect.really. he's like GORGEOUS Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!! * didnt have an angel last year turns out im mortal-less too cus everyone else took the english names i ended up with a chinese name i couldnt remember and by the time i knew THAT GIRL GOT FOUR ANGELS ALREADY -woah- * im cca-less btw and i dont wish to elaborate further (sob) * pity about the tablet's screen which is gonna be so friggin puny yikes * NOT ALL THE BOOKS I READ ARE GAY realms of possiblity has some, yeah but BLAUE ROZEN ISNT! oh and blaue rozen rocks. AKIRA SHIRAISHI ^^ im so happy i got people to read it.=) thats the 2nd joy in reading manga =) =) * harriet and the scratch on wrist thing.. i feel its overrated CURIOSITY DOESNT TURN A PERSON INTO A CUTTER, please. * im skipping every recess for two reasons one of them is i dont wanna bring lunch box two... its stupid! >< (not sayin!) ah but im not skipping friday's one though..(grins) YEP! PRATA DAY!!! hehhehheh * gonna give up can i? we'll see! =) (if not, too bad HAHAHA) =COLD TURKEY TREAMENT= but everyday's after that would have nothing to centralise on what do i revolve around then? i know its gonna feel WONKY! * school's a burden ..and andro's a GREAT go home buddy! -huggies!- * im goody.too goody. classes are so boring ive nothing better to do but pay attention what crap is that? even jessie has that impression of me ARGHHH oh look on the bright sight yeah i know but im losing life -ebbing- * shortest post ever this was eh? i bet you guys would love the shortness GAAAAHH. * btw noww ITS IMPOSSIBLE TO FALL ASLEEP IN SCHOOL see me asleep? ha well actually im not somesort of meditation, if you would ^^ *
1:17 AM
Saturday, January 05, 2008
I WENT TO.. PARIS DIJON GENEVA TORINO MILANO SWITZERLAND CANNES MONACO i hope i got them all!=) will mention the trip next time! * It is the first weekend from the re-opening of school. Weekends are like holidays, only shorter. In the holidays, thoughts of school made me feel sick. School didnt turn out so bad.the first day didnt turn out so bad. I just freaked myself wayy too much.. I couldnt care less about the weekends. There wasnt school.school was but a memory like a dream. I am not living in it. (Id like to) Harrriet says i should look up.and LOOK AT PEOPLE when talking to them. i look down too much =( I said i'll try. * i hate myself for having that aspect in my personality. its tiring, dragging, wearing me out i wish to destroy that piece which i cant without destroying myself. i can replace though.. though it has been difficult.guess i'll try.=/ * i feel hoooorrrrrriible in class.(all 3 days of it) felt like vomitting. i felt like my stomach was empty and i had to put something inside it. yet i repulsed at eating. i felt a different degree of sickness when i did eat. so no matter what i did, id still feel sick. i cant feel hungry properly.urgh. i have since given up lunch. what.the.hell. is.wrong.with.me? * i found anais nin by chance while searching joan miro. 'the only abnormality is the incapacity to love' and all of a sudden, for once, my label "weird" felt very alien.for that moment, i had wanted to be one of those disgustingly ordinary, digusting averages YIKES * in class im sitting next to jaclyn only because barely anyone else would. didnt have a choice. i heard from people, like suet bout her.. but im stuck there the whole year. it'll be best to be..good with her. i think she's..okay. she's the kind i can be good with easily, but definately the kind which i absolutely do not foresee even the slightest hope of the possibility of becoming good friends with her because (i guess) she's average, well, to the sense that i dont find her too boring, but i am not interested in anything with relation to her and couldnt care less about her. but i find her not at all difficult to talk to (though for some reason i have been extremely attentive in class, no matter how boring the teacher, and i actually wish i could politely shut her up to hear the teacher properly, instead of being interested in engaging conversations like i used to) * i wonder what id be like if i did fit into the class. at present i am barely able to match the names with the faces of half the class.. (the people are..nice.i am the problem.) * its.. WONKY .. im sitting next to a very much hated girl... also very much disliked by suet and harriet, both of which i do very much like. there's andro..usually as the after school buddy(dont yet know what she thinks of jaclyn) ..and whenever we gotta form groups, jessie yells me over. * im like trapped in my physical form somehow i feel that way i wish i could push my way out and finally strech and breathe out properly. i feel like my ears and mouth and nose and eyes are blocked and i feel stuffed its silent even when its noisy and loud well music releases me..some people too. but when it ends im stuck again.. AAAAAAARRRRRRGGGGHHHH!!!!!
1:47 AM
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