Another chapter's ending,

Sunday, December 09, 2007

yesterday...

...it was yesterday.yup.

i suddenly felt how insignificant everyone was to me.

the people i find joy in,

IJ people

family people

crescent people yihui?harriet?

,that they are, they

..actually dont really matter.

what's my problem????HUH???

i wonder why i felt that way that time.

i was having a shower.(most relavations shows up there)

Dont they matter?

What matters?

Am i that cold?

Why dont they matter?

why dont they?maybe i know.

though,

i belong somewhere,physically, psychologically,

among friends, family.

emotionally, spritually,

dont i have only myself?

i know that best.

I hate the one

I hate myself

The one i hate, Myself

Myself, the one i hate

That does bode unwell.

to untie my hate

to untie myself

i have to

untie myself

so to

untie my hate

reserved to self.

no one defines

the world provides

and what you get

is what you see

and it is

what you give

yourself eventually.

wow, there's bleeding for the first time.

im doing great, a little by little and,

i'll have it disappear.

i wont commit suicide

there's too much i havent done

like reading

eating

experiences (hem hem.)

but if i will..

..i'll take some down with me.

flout the law a little before i go

some chaos

(grin)

cait!!!!!!

IM SO GLAD!!

I WILL SEE YOU OFF

I WILL.

paris paris here i come.

i'll be only too glad to leave this place

minus a couple of people and things

(you know who you are?)

but, WTH.right after im back,

im wisked right into

the hell-hole of a school.

9:53 PM